And she isn’t even gone

Dusky, hazy, purple day after rain

Dusky, hazy, purple day after rain

As the thunder rolls outside, it’s almost deafening, compared to the silence inside.  There is a faint whisper from one of the televisions left on in another room.  Other than that, there is nothing.

Normally, I relish in the quiet but today it is different.  Today I cannot seem to stop the agonizing silence from reminding me that there is much more of it to come.

You see my days of telling toddlers to eat all of their dinner or get in the bathtub are over.  My days of shuttling adolescents to appointments long before they get their permit are gone.  Sleepovers and sports, bedtime stories and battling are a thing of the past.  When my youngest departs in a couple of months to carry on with her life, it will leave its mark.

People will tell you to think on the bright side; of lives fulfilled and your “good raising” and grandchildren and hope and dreams realized.  And I will.  They will say, “This is a normal, natural part of life and you should embrace it”.  And I have.  Some offer that, “Now, you have all this free time and you and the hubby can enjoy each other!”  Yes, this I realize.

But you know what?  That doesn’t take away the ache, the missing and the worry.

I know God has His hand on all of us, and things really will work out for the best.  And maybe I will even look back someday and laugh about my melancholy days, missing my children before the last one is even really gone.

But not today, not right now.

Comments

  1. Big hugs Lisa. I totally relate though. The days are numbered before our babies are gone…

  2. Terrie Goff says:

    It is a chapter of life that you don’t know the feelings it embraces until you walk through it. The “free time” we once looked for becomes deafening with the silence. We move forward one step at a time embracing each moment of memories with a new perspective. God is our source of new direction to fill those empty places.

  3. Hugs to you! I have 5 years before my youngest leaves…the oldest is on her own, the second is going to her second year of college. Sigh. I can just imagine what you’re feeling…take your time, hopefully the time to get re-acquainted with your hubby will be a great thing – that and some time for yourself.

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